Sambutan Raya

Tahun nih raya kat negara orang..
Not so sure how am I feeling right now. Sad? nah..... I dont really think I'm that regretful of celebrating raya without my family. I'm on the path of Jihad (studying) anyway.... this is something that I have to accept and sacrifice. Although sometimes I do miss my family and the activities of going to other people's houses, eating like monster n claiming duit raya.

Xpe laaa, 2 years jer pun. Btw, I just wanna express my feeling of how happy I'm to have bought two pairs of Raya shoes. Thanx to e-bay, now I have Rip Curl and Adidas under my possession.... haha. Got them for cheap price.


Kepada saper2 yg lalu blog aku n terbaca nih....

I just wanna wish....

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin
Moga kita dapat bertemu dgn Ramadhan yg akan datang.....

Storytelling

Waaaaaaa!!! next week I'll be doing a storytelling presentation.
Bapak ah... presentation biasa pun gagap2. Ini kan presentation yg perlu massive engagement from audiences.
What should I do?
Hmmm, I'll be doin a story entitled "The Disobedient Frog".
Sounds dull, but the twist in the story is quite good. It forces you to think.
Props xde lagi nih...
Idea tandus lagi nih...
Hope ada ilham datang along the way this weekend.

Gambate !!!

Mencari Pengalaman Bekerja

Akhirnya, ada gak platform tuk aku mencari pengalaman bekerja di dapur restoran.
Agak complicated awal2..
kena otai chef sound "2 middle, 4 side", "1 platter for two", "three salad side" (PENING!!).
Pastu dier punyer dip-dip.... turquoise, leek, bagama, asos, euphesus, waaaa!! bleh pecah paler.
1st day mmg kelam kabut sumer...

tapi Alhamdulillah, biler masuk 2nd day.. bnyk bender dah aku bleh hafal.
Apa yang best nyer.. makanan dalam kedai tuh aku bleh makan anytime aku nak.
tgk menu, harga makanan paling murah 8.00 dollar.... kalo nasi = 24.00 dollar. Tobak untung aku.
Kalo masa closing, makanan bnyk lebih, bleh tapau bawak balik.
Wahaha, dapat gak merasa turkish food.
Walaupun gaji x tinggi, at least aku dapat experience yg bleh bantu aku cari kejer yg lebih establish...

Setakat nih, I enjoy my work and looking forward to learn more.
Coretan sementara... lama x type.

Hadeh... sihatnya aku!

Ayam skarang nih kalo x suntik mmg x sah jadi ayam..
Sumer bender nak suntik hormone.
Patut laa snang sgt skarang nih dapat cancer.
Bimbang gak aku kalo fikir berapa bnyk ayam aku dah makan sejak dari awal aku lahir.
Sumer tuh ayam daging suntik ker??!!



Bior jer laa, kalo dah nak ajal... x ke mana gak. Aku redha. huhu

Yes!! Aku dah nak botak.

Finally, genetik keturunan dah membuktikan yang aku akan botak.
Obvious giler. Kawan2 sumer dah notice. Dier start kat bahagian tgh kepala lak tuh.
Hahaha, I never tot it would be this early.

Like my brother (Harith) said, it runs in the family. I cant avoid it.
Anyway, it's good to become bald as it gives you a sense of maturity and adulthood.

So long hair, welcome SHINY SKIN !

Kelakar tapi benar...

First time ayah involve dalam hal peribadi aku....
dier cakap "kalo nak buat isteri, tanya dier dulu, nak duduk x dengan mak ayah?"

Rasa cam lawak jugak sebenarnyer. Sbb sbg guru, kiter x tau pun dapat posting mana. Maybe duk Sabah n Sarawak. Possibilities would be varied.

Tapi aku xkan ambik bender nih remeh. InsyaAllah, aku akan cari isteri yg bleh tolong menjaga mak n ayah.

I'll promise.

Assignments

Wah! assignment dah start bertimbun.... bestnyer (ironi).
Kena buat story collection, digital video, n written assignment (lesson plan).
Waduh, agak sakit gak sbb 3-3 tuh due next week. Heee, tu laa Sani, last minit lagi.

Hmmmm, kejer maybe start bulan Oktober nih.
Mujur laaaa, kalo x mesti susah nak wat assignment.
Mmg Allah nak selamatkan aku dari pressure yg kronik.

Neway, apa plan aku summer nih? kejer sampai lebam ah kut.
Nak kumpul duit dulu sebelum buat paper yg len. Travel next winter kut baru start.
Nak pi NZ. Buat bungee n skydiving kut. InsyaAllah (mati aku kalo mak tau nih).

nih sajer coretan dari aku.

Roger & Out.

Hatred

I came across upon hatred long ago, back when I was still young.
He was my true enemy at that time. We have nothing in common, but a complete contrast.
I couldnt accept him as my partner in life, thus seeing him in front of my bare eyes.

Now, he returns to me again. Offering me the same deal which I rejected before.
A deal which may release me from such tremendous suffering which I held within me now. Sorry to ignore you in the past Hatred.
Now, spread your will and guidance within me, to go against those who I once loved.
Let my past memory be erased.
Thank you hatred, your timing is so accurate. It is now that I shall need you.

(Weih, xpenah2 aku tulis nder gini. Nih mesti ada org ajar aku nih. Doa jer laaa weih. Apa hok mung nok hate-hate org nih. Ish2.)

Sekilas Pandang

Tadi sembang ngan orang yg hire aku jd cleaner rumah dier, Mr. Kumar.
He told me a lot of things about his life. Well, he's an Indian, pure one from mainland.
He had worked in so many countries. Just name them, China, Singapore, Australia and even Malaysia for 3 years.
The whole time in his life was spent traveling around the world, trying and experimenting new working environment.
Wow, sounds great to me.
Then, he asked me one simple question, "are you planning to work here in Brisbane after study?". (kejer luar dari Malaysia?)

Hmmmmm, buat aku terfikir gak sebenarnyer.
Memang menarik kalo bekerja ditempat orang. Dapat mengenali dunia dengan lebih jelas.
Andai kalo aku dapat kejer kat Saudi Arabia best gak.
Haha... Dekat skit ngan Baitullah n makam Rasulullah. Mmg tuh impian aku gak masa form 4, wanna build a house either in Makkah or Madinah.
I dont even care about the job wages and bonuses. It doesnt matter. As long as I have the money to sustain my basic needs and serve Allah's course, that would be just fine.

Tapi, kalo aku fikir2 balik... mak ayah aku kat Malaysia.
Aku anak laki lak tuh. Mmg xbleh ah nak kejer jauh2 dari diorang. Aku kena jaga diorang. Xkan laaa nak bawak diorang kuar dari Malaysia. Sakit tulang2 belakang diorang. Dahlaa nak kena adapt tempat orang lak tuh... haha.
Pastu, kerajaan Malaysia laa yg membuatkan aku berjaya sampai kat mana aku skarang nih. So, it's an obligation for me to repay the debt of my motherland.
Ish2... Tapi seriously, aku diuji kejap tadi sebagai seorang warganegara Malaysia..... hahaha.

Macam-Macam Dalam Masa 4 Tahun Akan Datang

Wargh!! nak dapat sijil degree cepat.... nak berjaya dalam pelajaran.
14 tahun dah belajar, bleh kata lama tuh.
Tapi ilmu nih xpenah sikit pun. Makin dijelajah, makin banyak.
Kuasa Allah S.W.T mmg tiada tandingan. Kerdil jer aku nih.

K laa, aku ari nih rasa cam nak buat kira2 skit ah.
Dalam masa terdekat, apa big event yg bakal aku lalui.....
Umur dah makin meningkat, tanggungjawab dah makin berat.
Pelbagai kewajiban perlu aku lalui lepas nih.
Kahwin, haji, tempat bermukim n kemudahan hidup.

Kahwin = RM20,000 --- paling maximum kut. Sederhana cukup ah kut.
Haji = RM13,000 --- nih patut buat sblm umur naik 30-an. Muda sebelum tua laa katakan.
Rumah = RM200,000 --- adeh.... yg nih mmg xleh elak daripada berhutang ngan bank. xnak!!
Insurans = RM10,000 --- penting tuk keluarga, sian diorang nanti kalo aku jadi pape.
Kereta = RM????? --- buat sementara waktu, cukup ngan Proton jer kut. tapi nanti isteri mesti nak satu... hehe



Total untuk dibelanja dalam masa terdekat = RM243,000.

Bnyk, tapi x mustahil. Allah ada tuk mengurniakan rezeki pada hambaNya yg berusaha.
Aku rasa adalah penting bagi diri aku untuk mula berfikir ke hadapan.
Aku kena stop fikir cam remaja2 yg hanya tau enjoy jer.
Dah dewasa dah.... 21 dah, bleh mengundi tuh.

OK, ayuh usaha wahai Hasani. Jadi seorang yg berwawasan skit. Asyik2 main GAME jer!

Ahruju ila Malayzia pada 14/January

Akhirnyer.... terbeli tiket balik Malaysia (sound like I did it unconciously). Mahal seh, RM2400 gak kalo convert. Nakal sungguh Malaysia Airlines nih. Haha.

Mak kata nak bayar semula duit tiket tuh, tapi pada hakikatnyer aku hutang mak aku sendiri RM5000. Main tolak-tarik masa call dier tadi. Mak insists nak bayar duit tiket, aku plak insists xnak susahkan beban mak aku. Ntah, ada kawan cakap ambik jer ah duit tuh, dah nak diberi.... Tapi bagi aku, andai aku x ambik duit tiket tuh balik, mak mesti dapat buat bnyk kebajikan. Aku xnak kurangkan kebajikan mak aku. Sekarang nih mak nak buat pondok kat sempadan Besut. Mesti perlukan duit.... biarlah orang kata rugi ker apa... aku gembira sbb dapat menolong mak aku dalam cara camnih.

Haha, kirenyer tinggal RM2600 lagi hutang. Bisa diberes x lama lagi. Itu sahaja coretan aku kali nih.... xde apa sangat pn. hehe...

Warkah....

Aku rasa tertarik ngan lagu nih. Maybe kena ngan apa aku rasa sementara waktu nih kut...

Pening gak kadang2 aku fikir. Tiba-tiba jer aku jd cintan semacam. Aku dah sgt kurang main GAME! tuh lagi dahsyat kut. Maybe it's just for awhile. Xpe kut rasa camnih. At least I feel myself a bit humane.

Should I stay or run away

Choices is in your hands

Difficult decision to be made. Well, to put it into story, I have placed myself into one of the toughest electives that the Faculty of Education could offer. I joined this class on the basis of interest, but more importantly was because of my friends. Now that they all have shifted their personality, it's hard for me to work along with them. I need to respect their decision and give them some space for good changes. I'm now stuck inside that class, as a sole Malay male. With one of the assignments coming up, which requires me to pair up with someone and create a 40 minutes presentation, I could see this as a pending doom. I dont think locals would like to pair up with a second language user like me. It would jeopardize their assignment mark as I'm not a competent user of English. Besides, none of them even like to sit beside me during the lecture. adeh...

It's even harder for me to accept that I have to ignore 9 of my friends during the tutorial. I cant even imagine the moment when I need to choose which table to sit with. It would seem awkward for me to sit with the locals when there is a group of Malaysian students sitting on the other side. These are all the pessimistic side of thinking.

Meanwhile, if I were to see it in a positive way. I get to mingle around with other native speakers during tutorial and use the English language more. That's why I'm here for in Brisbane. Aaaaah, one more thing, I might also work harder due to my disadvantages in class. The idea that I dont have anyone to depend on might be able to push me even further as individual learner. Besides, university is nothing like school or colleges. You need to work more on your own. It's you yourself. I've Allah and my family as a source of strength. That's more than enough.

Well then, since I can still re-allocate my class before 15th of August, it's only a matter of choices...... O' Allah, please guide me

Laukkan diri anda

Hmmmm, since dah berpakat ngan Danial, aku dah kena masak masakkan berlauk laa pasnih. Xyah dah pasta, pizza n sumer bender yg hanya tuk makan sorang dan berkos tinggi. Tapi apa experience aku dalam masakkan berlauk nih? none i guess.

Tomorrow will be my turn to cook. Aku cadang nak buat kari ayam. Thanx to Didie, dier ada bagi tips2 hangat camner nak masak kari ayam ngan jayanyer. Aku harap aku ada bahan2 nyer. Huhu. Kalo xde bahan tuh = xsedap. Sian kat Dan nak makan jer. Haha. 1st time buat kari, 2nd time maybe dah bleh implement apa yang patut.

2 hari lepas tefon mak. Mak ajar camner nak masak ayam masak kicap (resipi nenek). Agak complicated pada awalnyer tp worth trying i guess. Aku harap aku dapat belajar memasak ngan jayanyer n one day tolong bakal isteri aku kat dapur. At least I may be able to ease her burden. Gud luck Mohd Hasani....

21st July 2008, A new beginning

Ahah!

After two months of holiday, it has finally came. The day where I need to sweat my brain off again. Arghh, this sem is going to be staggeringly challenging. My monday timetable is immensely full. Starting from 8.00 am, with TESOL Methodology, until 9.00 pm, Digital Media. Hahaha, 9 hours of excruciating pain. Nevermind though, I'll get use to it sooner or later. Becoming a teacher is nothing more but to immune urself to difficult tasks and situations. The more pain you gain, the more rewards and experiences you get to be a successful educator in the future. Bare with it Sani. Believe in urself. Make sure u'll get good grades for this Sem. Adun Hitorigash!!

"KITA" adalah apa yang kita bentuk

Kadang2 ramai orang salahkan environment kerana membentuk diri kiter camnih. Sedikit-sebanyak... memang btol pun. Tapi, apa yang lagi besar mempengaruhi hidup kita nih adalah tindakan kiter sendiri. Seseorang guru mungkin boleh berusaha bermati-matian nak mendidik anak muridnyer untuk faham.. tapi kalo anak murid xnak belajar dan minat dier dah mati tuk memahami apa yang diajar... x ke mana gak.

Dalam situasi skarang, aku tgk anak2 melayu yg sering kali diklasifikasikan sebagai "Muslim" bangga dengan pelbagai masalah dan gejala sosial. Rempit, rogol, mabuk sana sini, parti... ish2. Dan biler ditanya kenapa jadi camnih.. the normal answers that we would probably hear are "mak ayah jarang bagi perhatian kat umah", "kecik2 dulu saya xtau pun Islam ada ajar jgn buat bender2 nih". Salahkan orang lain instead of diri sendiri. Maybe sbb xnak negatifkan emotional diri, sebab tuh tuding jari kat org lain.

Tapi sebenar-benarnyer, kita la yang membentuk siapa diri kiter. Akal yang dikurniakan Allah S.W.T cukup sempurna tuk membahagikan antara yang baik n yang buruk. Sebelum semua manusia ditiupkan roh ke dalam jasad, kita semua pernah bersumpah dengan Allah S.W.T untuk mengabdikan diri kepadaNya. Logically, kita nih memang xperlukan sesiapa pun tuk menjadi hamba Allah dan mengamal berlandaskan Al-Quran n As-sunnah. Jiwa kiter secara xlangsung patut tahu apa yang baik dan patut diikuti. Mengapa masih ramai yang xboleh nak meletakkan tanggungjawab tuh kat diri sendiri tuk jadi insan yang baik.

Aku adalah orang yang percaya pada setiap kejadian tu berpunca dari tindakan diri sendiri. Walaupun element environment tuh ada jugak mempengaruhi akhlak kita, tapi faktor tuh xcukup kuat kalo kita mmg teguh and dapat membezakan antara yang haq dan batil secara sendiri.

You are the one who's responsible to your own doings. Stop blaming others 100%. Take them all as yours and learn to fix it overtime. InsyaAllah, u'll be a better person.

Renungkanlah... khas buat diri sendiri -Mohd Hasani-

Di dalam kaca mata aku

Aku x pandai meng"ayat" ker paper, tp apa yang aku terkilan hari nih adalah disebabkan ramai yang mengambil langkah mengejut dalam setiap bender yg diorang buat. Aku btol2 xfaham kenapa ada setengah org nih bleh buat sesuatu decision tuh, pastu biler rasa tertekan n xselesa ngan pilihan tuh, tukar balik. Dunia nih bukan tempat tuk korang main sorong tarik..... dunia nih pentas yang penuh ngan ujian dari Allah S.W.T. And I do believe that we need to handle it well. Seorang non-muslim yang baru memeluk Islam, xboleh x tunaikan 5 Rukun Islam walaupun pada awalnyer x dipaksa masuk Islam. And this person would get his head off if he/she resorts to murtad.

Apa yang aku nak sampaikan nih bukannyer apa. Aku nampak ramai yang asyik main acu/try/test ngan bende2 yang keagamaan nih. Aku mmg suka tgk kawan2 aku berdamping ngan group2 muzakarah, usrah n etc nih. Memenuhi jiwa kiter ngan ilmu2 akhirat sekaligus duniawi. Tapi, aku paling pantang kalo nampak orang yang dah btol2 komited nak berubah ke arah kebaikan, tapi secara mengejut, kembali kepada dunia asal or even worse. Masa awal2 join group tazkirah, bukan main lagi zuhud n thiqah, mengalahkan ustaz kadang2. Tapi biler agaknyer dikenakan ujian sedikit jer, terus tukar. Aku bercakap nih bukan tuk orang lain, but for me as well.... Aku pn skarang dah bnyk terpesong. Sama2 laaa kiter renungkan apa yang baik n apa yang buruk. Ingat, Islam nih datang kat kiter sebagai satu pemberian yang paling besar seorang Umat Muhammad boleh dapat. Xde nikmat lain yang boleh mengatasi nikmat Islam. Most importantly, dont ever take it for granted (esp. those yg lahir2 terus sebagai seorang Muslim). Kufur jawabnyer kalo x menghargai nikmat nih....

Note: Kawan2 sekeliling jangan laaa sentiasa menunggu tuk melihat kejatuhan seseorang rakan. Saling tolong-menolong dalam tegur-menegur apa yang baik n apa yang buruk. Biasa laaa, manusia nih lemah dan sentiasa lupa. We always need constant reminder to become a better Muslim.

and so it begins...

Hoping to write some stuffs into this blog. I'm that Istiqamah, but I'll my best in updating it. Much to be told, much to be learnt, and much to be cherished. It's even better if we share this experience and opportunity with others through blogging. Thanx technology, and thank you God for giving mankind the ability to develop such thing.

Yeah, lets do this..... (syok sendiri jer aku nih)